Well, firstly I am a lazy, hard partying 28 year old looking out across the bleak world of hideous finance and wondering how the hell I got here. Sure I am successful at work, stupidly overpaid and uninspired. I lack discipline, am complacent, cocky and horrified by my own affluenza, poignantly manifesting itself in increasingly reckless hedonism.
This makes me unhappy and unfulfilled and horrified at what the future holds.
Add to this the monotonous cycle of dreariness that has poisoned my passions in the form of a hated vocation and the daily observation of the long term effect of this toxic environment on my colleagues and mentors and the idea of dropping the ball completely is sometimes overwhelming. I find myself increasingly aware of deplorable attitudes manifesting within me through exposure to this environment - the sheer sordidness of it all is suffocating. I don't like what I am becoming, let alone what i will almost certainly be if I continue on my current path.
This is not a path I am prepared to accept nor continue following. And I don't see why I cannot change it. Every last ridiculous piece of it
And I will.
My blog is going to track my progress as I prepare for an incredible change. It will be an outlet for my petty frustrations, a log of my achievements and failures, and serve as an integral part of a new, structured and spartan me. I am utilising a number of techniques having already read several books and journals to aid in the transformation and I am willing to try them all. If you happen to read any of this (hello!) - I hope the techniques I find to be successful and helpful will recommend themselves to you.
My personal motto has always been that "No one is human innocently", and whilst it has excused my reckless acts, I plan to harness it to inspire patience within me on this journey and develop that into a much happier, healthier, and disciplined me.
Wish me luck!
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